oh'hoo...bad3...

arrkkk...

my finger got cut by itself cause of my dried finger...

nice bleed...

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heheheh..main2...

same as my birthday...(20th birthday)

New Look...no surgical...keh3...

my new look...muahahhahaha...

my hair b4 cut..

keh3....

::Love Is Blind::

I see you all the time
Never see you smile
I try to picture what's going on in your mind
He leaves you every night by yourself
He took your love and put it on the shelf
He doesn't really care how you feel...  
You should be moving on girl what's the deal?
Coz girl you know your worth so much more
Wana see you out that door

So baby tell me why you stick around
Always lonely and you only wear a frown
He don't treat you good and you know
The only thing left is for you to go
You shouldn't live a lie with someone
When deep inside you know he ain't the one
I don't know what to say no more
I wana see you out that door

Yah azizi (yo precious) is mahiri
I really don't wanna see u cry
Mujko samjho dil peh mat lo (understand me don't take it to heart)
Don't wana see another tear in your eye
Baby break away
Let him go
I don't know he's done to you
But I know that it's time to move on
Girl your is love blind

Girl I understand
That you're scared
And you feel that you might never love again
But baby that ain't true
No no no
I know that there some there for you
Someone that will see
That you are worth
An undiscovered treasure on this earth
Girl you know your worth so much more
Wana see you out that door

Yah azizi (yo precious) is mahiri
I really don't wanna see u cry
Mujko samjho dil peh mat lo (understand me don't take it to heart)
Don't wana see another tear in your eye
Baby break away
Let him go
I don't know he's done to you
But I know it's time to move on
Girl your is love blind

Yah azizi (yo precious) is mahiri
I really don't wanna see u cry
Mujko samjho dil peh mat lo (understand me don't take it to heart)
Don't wana see another tear in your eye
Baby break away
Let him go
I don't know he's done to you
But I know its time to move on

Teka Perbezaan Diri Ini Dengan Penampilan Sebelum Ini

Nasib Malang Lagi..

huhuhu..punye lh aku slumber je guna kasut pagi ni td...ble pakai masuk kete ok lg..tp first2 mmg dh sempit nak masuk..still wat dek gak..then p station minyak...rasa sgt xselesa...mcm ade tekanan je di hujung kaki..then masuk kete bukak lh kasut..tgk dlm xde pape..so kte masukkan tangan..masuk je terpegang satu biji jeli..geli gler..trus balik kasut..tgk2 katak rupa nya..cilaka tol..ape tdo2 dalam kasut org ah...

hehe..then berhenti kt bandar...p buang katak tu..so skrg hidup die susah dipenuhi kenderaan sekeliling..ambek kau..

new....

my new hair n my new nail..keh3....

kih3...

muahahahhaha...motor ku kilat berseri...

muahahhaa....

hehehe...besar x...beli yg besar free yg kecill...

rm80++

Bergedil ku..

bp hari lepas kwn ku p tagged nama ku n kwn2 die kt bergedil die buat...

so byk la komen bwh tu...

ade ckp spe xpandai buat bkn isteri yg baik..

keh3..

so tanye la resepi td...

so last two days kte try buat...

ekot resepi kwn..

tp ade ubah skit..

kte xpakai tepung..

ayam cincang di goreng then cincang blik..

letak bwng merah juga kt dlm die n cili potong kecil..

hehe...tu yg extra..

nk bg wangi, letak serbuk lada..muahaha...

::Unlucky Day::

Yesterday morning my belove hardisk suddenly got problem..

its broken..damed..

then that evening i lost a ring..my little finger ring..

sob3....

the day b4 kuku ku terhiris parang...

Sedih Nye

sedih sungguh hati ni ble dpt tahu brittany murphy mati..

entah la...aku kebelakang ni byk tgk cerita die...

skali tu kt kuching uptown girl..

then aku ade cerita die The Ramen..sedih gler cite tu...

Then aku baru je dload cerita deadline..cerita baru die..

argghhhhh..........sedih nye.............!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Just Got Back From Sarikei..

Huargghh..tired...dizzy....

one hour plus drive to sarikei from sibu...

Ladang Pisang...(mcm farmville aku je..hehe..)

tu jantung die..

dh cukup buah keluar, jantung n buah yg xnk di buang..

di spray then di bungkus...

ni next month dh blh harvest..

Jantung Pisang yang patah..

hehe..hbs tgk ladang p mkn kejap..then blik..

oh..apekah itu..

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wakakaka...

::Bye Bye by Mariah Carey::

Lately, i've been listening to this song since three days ego..

I listen and sing..hmm..never though of anything..

But today i have realize why...sad moment happen..

Hmm..Dear, sorry about your brother...be strong ok...i always here for you..

This is for my people who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my people who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye

As a child there were them times I didn't get it
But you kept me in line
I didn't know why you didn't show up sometimes on Sunday mornings
And I missed you, but I'm glad we talked through
All them grown folk things separation brings
You never let me know it
You never let it show because you loved me
And obviously there's so much more left to say
If you were with me today face to face

I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
"I wish I could talk to you for a while"
Miss you but I try not to cry as time goes by
And soon as you reach a better place
Still I'd give the world to see your face
And I'm right here next to you
But it's like you're gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say bye bye
Bye, bye, bye, bye, bye, bye
Bye, bye, bye, bye, bye, bye
Bye, bye, bye, bye, bye, bye
Bye, bye

And you never got the chance to see how good I've done
And you never got to see me back at number one
I wish that you were here to celebrate together
I wish that we could spend the holidays together
I remember when you used to tuck me in at night
With the Teddy Bear you gave to me that I held so tight
I thought you were so strong
You'd make it through whatever
It's so hard to accept the fact you're gone forever

I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
"I wish I could talk to you for a while"
Miss you but I try not to cry as time goes by
And soon as you reach a better place
Still I'd give the world to see your face
And I'm right here next to you
But it's like you're gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say bye bye
Bye, bye, bye, bye, bye, bye
Bye, bye, bye, bye, bye, bye
Bye, bye, bye, bye, bye, bye
Bye, bye

This is for my people who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my people who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye

::Tahun Baru Islam::

"Ya Allah, di hari terakhir tahun 1430H ini, kupohon keampunan dariMu diatas segala kekhilafan yang telah aku lakukan sepanjang tahun ini,dan kumohon kepadaMu, Ya Allah, berikanlah kekuatan kepadaku untuk mengharungi segala cabaran dan dugaan pada tahun 1431H kelak.Amin,ya rabbal Alamin." Selamat menyambut Maal Hijrah 1431H/Happy New Islamic Year 1431H.

::Already Gone::

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories, they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye
Even without fists held high, yeah
Never would have worked out right, yeah
We were never meant for do or die

I didn't want us to burn out
I didn't come here to hurt you now
I can't stop

I want you to know
That it doesn't matter
Where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone

Looking at you makes it harder
But I know that you'll find another
That doesn't always make you wanna cry
Started with a perfect kiss
Then we could feel the poison set in
Perfect couldn't keep this love alive

You know that I love you so
I love you enough to let you go

I want you to know
That it doesn't matter
Where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone

I'm already gone
I'm already gone
You can't make it feel right
When you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone
Already gone
There's no moving on
So I'm already gone

Already gone
Already gone
Already gone, Oooo, oh
Already gone
Already gone
Already gone, yeah

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories, they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye

I want you to know
That it doesn't matter
Where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone

I'm already gone
I'm already gone
You can't make it feel right
When you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone

Already gone
There's no moving on
So I'm already gone...

YEAY!!! Home from Kuching!!! (Tengku, dh update..)

Uweekk..mabuk2...dok lam kete 6jam dr kuching sampai sibu..hehe..

FUF..baru ade masa nk update blog..erm..

Atas pmintaan Tengku Ellena, aku update yg ni..hehe...

Aku p kuching 10 haribulan hari tu..after adik hbs spm 9 hrbln...hehe..

so kami bertiga dad driving ke kuching..mom n abg dh p awal..

on the way p kuching..ade je stop bli brg..so kami pun bli buah2..

bli durian la...rambutan la..buah ape nme laa...last2 buah cempedak..

sbb bli buah tu nk buat cucur..org tua tu pun cakap "Kuning Buah Itu" dgn tune iban die..hehe..

sampai2 je rumah, trus bukak buah..mkn durian dlu..then baru bukak cempedak..

bukak je cempedak, buah tu MANTAK!!!

cilaka btol...4 biji buang mcm tu je..xdpt mkn..sedih tol..kempunan..

so petang tu pun jalan2..p mkn..p kedai uncle..mlm tu pun dorg bwk mkn..(mkn free..huhu..)

second day tu bgn(friday)....so jalan2 lagi..p bfast dlu..mkn mee kolok dgn Bah Kuh Tay..sehari2 jalan..dr pagi smpai mlm...

pagi tu p raon2...p tgk HomeStay..byk HomeStay bgs2 di kuching..tp ade yg boring..hehe..

then petang tu jalan2 lg..p Spring..cari barang..nk shopping..xdpt pape..sob2..

mlm tu raon2..dad bli ayam panggang..blik mkn..hehe...

so third day tu pun bgn..(Saturday)..dad kejut..p jogging kwsn rumah..bosan tol..tp tpaksa..teman die..hehe....

after Jog, kuar ngn dad cari barang...cari simen segi empat..utk hias garden...

hehe..then tgh hari tu p mkn dgn kazen lak...

(mkn free lg..hehe...kazen byr)

kenyang.....lepas tu p spring lg..jalan2..sejuk..ehehe...

try cari bju lg..xdpt gak..sedih tol...(asyik2 spring..aduh..tmpt len xnk p ke ape..)

mlm tu xmkn..tdo awal..hehe..

hari ke empat lak..(Sunday)..awal pg dh bgn..mandi..xselesa..hehe...

kemas garden blik..tp xlama lepas tu uncle call..

p bfast..(free lg..hehe..)

minum Teh C' Special medium size..nyam3....hehe..

hehe..medium size..sorry..air dh hbs kena minum..

after bfast, p bli brg utk masak2...bli terubuk masin utk Azrin..hehe..

masak sayur labu..bla3...

sy, mom n adik masak2...dad n abg hias garden kecik dorg...

hehe..

Rock Garden..senang utk abg jaga...

petang tu p blik ke Spring..mom hntr blik brg die yg salah..hehe...(spring lg..pecah kepala..nk p Sarawak Plaza pun xdpt..)

so try cari bju lg...shopping2..jumpa gak..tp bkn baju harian..suar n baru entah ape jenis..

hehe..

then mom n abg n adik p tmpt len jap..

kte ngn dad je pusing2..

then tibe2 mulut sy tlepas ckp, eh..cantik baju ya..

hehe..trus dad bwk masuk kedai..trus cuba..

cari2 yg len gak...dpt lh dua helai bju..hehehe....

fuf.....penat explain..tengku lh ni..hehe...

hehe..ni lh baju tu..entah ape jenis..

ni lh baju yg pilihan pertama tu..huahuahua....

ni yg kedua..he..ni je lh dpt bli..bju ni pun xdpt pakai dlu..must lost weight dlu..hehe...

ini lh spring..hehe..sebahagian bgnan die..

then mlm tu p mkn..kazen yg bwk lg..(free lg..)

hehe...lepas mkn p main kt rumah kazen kejap...

then blik rumah tdo..

hehe..comel x die..sian die kene kurung..haha...

last day, (monday)..bgn kul 8 kot..

kemas2 barang....sharp 9.30 drive back to sibu..

around 3.30 sampai lh sibu...smpai ke rumah kul 3.50..hehe...

::..TAMAT..::

::jalan2 cari makanan...::

Today is Sunday...

so we go around at sibu market...

looking something to eat n to buy..

hehehe...

mom bought buah mata kucing n dabai for her to bring to kuching today..

(mom not at home now..so happy..peaceful..)

hehehe....

then buy some durians...

while choosing durians, my finger injured...sob3..

hehehe...then buy some daun membawang n kacang ulam..

hehe..sambal sesar(udang kering) n tompoyak eat with ikan bilis..cili habis plak...

Night after night by Gabby Becerra

Night after night I look at the sky
And ask why you are not here.
Night after night I listen to the
Overwhelming sound of my heart
Night after night I look around and see
That you are not here
Night after night I sit here and feel
The emptiness
That you have left behind
Night after night I pray to the sky
That where ever you might be
You have found happiness.

I Want To Know What Love Is

I gotta take a little time
A little time to think things over
I better read between the lines
In case I need it when I'm colder

In my life
There's been heartache and pain
I don't know
If I can face it again
Can't stop now
I've traveled so far
To change this lonely life

I wanna know what love is
I want you to show me
I wanna feel what love is
I know you can show me

Gonna take a little time
A little time to look around me
I've got nowhere left to hide
It looks like love's finally found me

In my life
There's been heartache and pain
I don't know
If I can face it again
Can't stop now
I've traveled so far
To change this lonely life

I wanna know what love is (Ooooh-oh)
I want you to show me (Meeeeee-ee)
I wanna feel what love is (Feel what love is)
And I know you can show me
(Show me, I wanna know)

I wanna know what love is (I wanna know)
I want you to show me (And I feel you so much love)
I wanna feel what love is
And I know you can show me
Oh, let's talk about love

::Betcha Gon' Know::

Welcome to a day of my life
The Memoirs of an Imperfect Angel
Welcome, Welcome, Welcome, to a day of my life..The Memoirs Of An Imperfect Angel

Though the lights were low, I could see you both
In a lovers sillouette
And my heart stood still, I was froze right there
Staring down at her red dress
So I bolted out the door, jumped right into the car
It's too dangerous to be in the vicinity of where you are
Rolled down all the windows just so I could breath
Can't believe you just actually did that S**T to me
I'm going 'bout a hundred, mascara running
Laughing out of anger, but it don't strike me as funny
Been to good to you , i've been virtuous and true
To have something like this happen in my own bedroom

[Chorus]
Betcha Gon Know how it feels when I get you back
Betcha Gon Know how it feels and your hearts been cracked
Betcha Gon Know how it feels and we fade to black
And you see your whole world collapse

I'ma lalalalala laugh (x3)
Right in your face boy

Betcha Gon Know how it feels

So I pulled to the side of the road to fix my face
But I can't cover with make up with what my tears want to me
I wake up in a haze, morning due and sunrays
As I drive I hide my eyes behind my black Cavalli shades
A block from the house, slowly creep in the driveway
Tiptoe through the door, but your there wide awake
Your like : Where you been?
I'm like : Sorry but I fell asleep on Jasmine's sofa
I could have sworn that Rae Rae called you and told ya
Your like : Are you OK?
I'm like : mmm, alright a little sleep and I'll be fine
But if you only knew what was in the back of my mind
Really stung, but your really gonna find out in time

[Chorus]

This is for real, for real, for real
Oprah Winfrey, whole segment, for real, for real
20/20, Barbara Walters,for real, for real
60 minutes for real

Baby
I had all my trust in you and
Look at what you put me through
You got me all crazy
Somewhere down the line your gonna get what you deserve..you F*****G jerk
Your were supposed to save me, my sweet baby
Now we are fading away..
But your gonna know how this feels
Even if it's the last thing I ever do
To be continued.......

::2nd December::

Can't believe we had reach 2nd December this year...

time move so fast...

there's reason why i mention this date...

it once means something to me...

but not anymore now...

just can't forget the date...

::Daging Panggang::

hehehe..nyam3....

::Perfume::

huhuhu...i bought this perfume this morning...

suddenly, i feel i need to buy it...

but of cause there is reason why i bought it...

there's always been a reason in everything that i buy...

::The Reason Remain Secret::

hehe...free deodorant...

::Broken::

You shut me down in shades of grey
That ricocheted into endless, matter
Your lucid eyes expecting me to stay
You could not comprehend how, shattered i was
 
I lie awake at night
And think about the golden rule of love
You’d better be prepared to pay the price
So look before you jump
Don’t look back, baby
Don’t look back, baby
Don’t look back

Love has broken you
Love has broken me

Invisible to naked eyes, but this euphoria
Can’t be mistaken
Cause i undress you in my mind,
Kaleidoscopic images all waken
 

Cause love has broken you
An’ love has broken me
Love has broken you
Love has broken me

There is no beginning, there is no end
Eternity is my new born friend
Vane green images and story eyes
Amazing grace with electro lines

Hey, could you do that again
Cause you feel me up time and time again
Never need to draw the line
These moments don’t need to be defined

I’m in a steady euphoria
If i told you the story
I’d bring you to your knees
Never knew what i was really missing
But now i do and i’d been digging press in

Don’t look back, baby
Don’t look back, baby
Don’t look back

Love has broken you
Love has broken me
Love has broken you
Love has broken me.

`Selamat Hari Raya Korban~~

huhuhu.....my mom, my sister, grandma, aunties & my cousins...

the one with orange "Kurung" is my mom...

next to me is my mom youngest sister...

the two kids & the girl next to me is her daughter..

next to the girl is my sister...

next to my sister is my mom eldest brother daughter...

the women between me & my auntie is my cousin mother...

so the only left is my grandmother..my mom's mother...

oh ya..I'm the one with the blue "Kurung"...

p/s: this photo was taken by my cousin at my grandma house...